[awaypost].x.i've been f a l l i n g

[x.azaelia//away]

Basically, I'm posting this because I'm taking a bit of a break from TLS. I'm still coming on to check up and whatnot, but I won't be on like...actively. >> I won't be posting, so apologies to Kiki, who's the only one who's actively RPing with me right now. I hopefully will be back someday to finish it off with ya, because I feel that the old fart meeting the alpha will be a great deal of fun.

The problem is -- I'm stressed. I feel that, between roleplays, the Internet in general, art, and of course, real life -- I'm just digging myself in way too deep. And I'm not even in school right now, which is usually the only time that I feel like this. I'm stressed because I feel bad for not replying to RP posts -- I'm trying my best on other sites, but for whatever reason poor TLS always gets bumped down. I feel bad because I owe art to a lot of you, and some of you have messaged me about it -- and I'm really sorry about that. I'd like to finish it, but every time I pick up my tablet pen I just...can't. It's like an art block, but not entirely. I can do SOME art -- but some stuff...just ain't workin' for me.

Furthermore, I feel kind of....idk. This site doesn't seem to be overly active these days, and apart from my one thread with Kiki -- neither of the other ones seem to be getting any replies. I'm not being all BAWWWWWWWW NOBODY'S REPLYING TO ME BAWWWW!!11!!! liek a n00b. It does make me feel a bit left out -- but I understand, it doesn't really offend me...but it does kind of add to the loneliness I often feel. Except at the same time, it makes it easier because I don't have to make so many replies xD

All in all, I feel unheard and stressed, both on the Internet and off -- and the 'net's meant to be my safe haven. And so, I'm taking a break from TLS. Hopefully when I come back, things will be blossoming and a million times more awesome and active than it is now. And hopefully I'll be less depressed and will be able to make things work without feeling stressed, unappreciated, etc. I'm very sorry if I in any way offended you guys with this. ^^; But...I need a break.

TO END THIS, I've decided to include a very epic quote I heard on a TV show a while ago...I started rewatching the episodes from the first season today, and this quote really jumped out at me. <3 I think I'll make it my little...message-y thingy underneat my icon. -insert the 'la' emote from deviantART here-

OH OH WAIT.

Before I go, know that you can contact me on my own roleplay site or on my deviantART account, among other things. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not send me messages asking me for things -- I'm very stressed, please try to respect that. :c

Anyways, now for that fantastically amazing quote <3

Make me good, God...but not yet. - Jackie Peyton

I'm not religious, but...gosh I just love that quote. <3